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11 April 来~！埋葬 ~我的~ 青春~现在不是弯弯些多流行这样写文章的嘛~ 写两三个字空你妈十多行~ 来~！ 埋葬， 我的，（哦，不对，应该说成“偶” ） 青春 啊~~~！！！ 人们~ 啊！！ 时间~ 啊~ 如， 那流水 去了~~ 我日，老子也可以写3~多有诗意的，给是嘛~ 真的哦，来埋葬了我的青春吧。20了，20了！！再也不是青少年了~ what adolescence, what teenage years~ fuckers all left me~ after all. 以前小时侯觉得20岁的人是应该出社会的人。不是那种随随便便的出社会，而是真的在外面能养活自己。 虽然提早了两三年开始这种生活，但我觉得过去几年自己把自己养的还不错，至少还扳到在3~嘿嘿。 就是觉得少了很多很多东西，目标里面存在的好多没有实现得到的东西。 还没有资格切挣理想中的那么多钱。现在滴点都不稳定，还是在为了滴点小数目每个月烦的要死~ working like this,like everything I make is for my rent, for all the bills is soo so so boring and stresses the shit outta me everyday~ 哪个想的到，原来以前十几岁的时候生活才叫无忧无滤，每天没的啥子事还鼓捣找点事来烦恼， 现在想起真的是吃饱了！ 现在的小娃娃还是嘛！ 滴点大一天到黑在那 PO些 对人生冷淡，无味，很空虚，很灰暗~！我日你13，4岁你空虚锤子，你啥子时候饱满过嘛？ 你无味嘛个人爬回切包口盐巴3~真的是！ 哎~ didn't mean to be resentful~ bite me~ 20岁的生日，啥子都没的~啥子都没变，以前每年都觉得这天是我最要不完，最不得了的，最奇迹的一天。地球还不是转的笑喜了，人家晓得还不是自己过自己的生活。哪个理你嘛~ 啥子都没的，但是还好有我昂贵的朋友们，这点让我非常庆幸~晓得自己有那么多爱我的人儿门，我一点也不失败，虽然也不够成功。 所以20岁生日有啥子愿望的话，那就是希望我20年后还有这些昂贵的朋友，还有家人身体健康，不要为我担心~妈妈心情愉快！！ 我爱死你了我的妈！！！ 妹娘，二天嫁不脱不如就嫁给我算了，反正安全，也可以给我做掩护3~我也不晓得何出此言，可能最近很想你嘛，你人太好了~~其他男人还要欺骗你，说不定还要伤害你的，我只安全~！！ 哈哈哈哈~ 眉娘~我好想你哦~ 记到我的肌肉男哈，我不喜欢太光身的哈，要有毛的！！ 生日快乐~勒娃儿~ 24 March Britney's Back!!She's been miss American dream since she was seventeen, which singer(in the world) would like to shamelessly dare to compare with her! She's been Miss bad media karma full of drama, you wanna compare your sadly little news to her countless "extra extra this just in"? she's been lifestyles of rich and famous, she's been that biggest seller who (according to the several cocky obnoxius/much more uglier singers who think themselves have the most amazing voices)can't sing. So please, give a definition of "can sing"! Turning on VMA, saying: " oh my god, she's too fat!" Bitches how about you go and have 2 babies and trying to look like Kate fucking Moss!! feel free to critisize her, feel free to hate her! Feel free to gossip that she's too big while her singles are hitting the top charts! But like it or not the world Britney Spears is back!!!! 14 February New York Baby~“又”更新了~ 一年过后。。。终于可以PO了 这一年要说有啥子特别好说的~也就是从睡别个的沙发MOVE了到享受自己的Queen size bed~ 感觉是不错，但是说实话少了那种”家“的感觉。 真的是在飞机这儿住的太舒服了。连打扫整理起来都很舒服~ 不然我也不会凌晨一两点的时候还在这儿打这篇文章~ 要回切的时候老是没的要回家的感觉，连打扫起来也没的在飞机那儿那种感觉。 对，这就叫犯贱。（By the way, it reminds me to thank Fei for shopping for furniture with me, it was fun) 一直都觉得自己多独立的，但是搬出切了才觉得being alone sucks fucking ass~ 是，在这儿非常的挤，每天都睡的沙发，时不时要吵下驾，还要时不时的洗碗打扫。但是就是因为这些才让我觉得有 “家”的感觉。新房子好是好，一个人住又没的飞机来管来管切的，但是每天还是想往这边跑，哎~Again~犯贱！但是睡沙发的那个时候是我最有 “家”的时候。 08最震撼我的就是without a doubt~陈冠希~ 的新闻吧~ 震撼的我凌晨4点过跑到飞机这儿来看照片~ 看到过后 三个字： 吓疼了！！ 再三个字： OH MY GOD！！ 张百只的毛一根一根的，阿娇的毛一根一根的。陈文远给他口交的时候表情那个淫荡！！ Shocking~! but you know whatelse is as shocking? His penis size~ I mean talk about small! Come on~ at least photo shop it after you're done taking them~ somebody go help the brother! Male Enhancement??? I just saw the commercial, I'll give your manager the number!! 不要搞错了，我非常的喜欢他，觉得他帅到不行~ But let's be honest~ the bro's let a lot girls and gays down with those pics with his dick in. 哎~ 又一个巨星倒了，这次还拉扯了那么多其他的巨星（一些啦） 至少Britney Spears不那么孤单了（如果她晓得在大洋彼岸还有个明星比她还惨的话~） 不要又搞错了，I love her too~ much more than Edison and i think she has a better chance to make a come back more than anybody~but the girl needs to get rid of the paparazzi that's been following her 24/7. 还有标题说到的，这个春假-New York baby~ I know to some it's not a big deal, but hell yeah it means a world to me. Although it make me sound sad~ but who gives a fuck of what people think, I am PSYCHED！！！特别鸣谢：飞机。who made it possible. 我会带礼物的，杂可能把你忘了嘛，刚刚才在你的SPACE上抄了地址。 曾经说过要一起切的，so I will make this trip like you're with me. It's dream we have once upon a time, I still believe it will happen, Ok? So for cheesy's sake, don't give it up. 今年中国大雪~希望家人穿的暖暖的~过一个好年~ 情人节快乐，大家~if you got one, have fun. if you don't , then..have fun with yourself like what I'm doing. But still, for prayers: St. Valentine~ give me a hottie~ hopefully as hot as the one I had two weeks ago, Amen! 02 September 万年更新 举国欢庆You Are My Sunshine When there's no place like home. Yeah, didn't really know what the hell whoever said this cliche was thinking. That was until I said then when finally this lost little kid( Michael's expression on me) flew back again. "Glamorously Entertaining" is what I use to describe Chengdu. I mean it~ like Sonic my home is even sweeter after midnight!! 2 years was not short, not if you were stuck in a tiny little town in the boonducks of the " Show me " state! (Warning: the following words are highly cheesy. The readers are suggested having strong stomach/heart conditions) I love my city with passion. Chengdu has this hypnotizing magic that makes you think it's always glowing shine 24/7. As to some people, it's even shinier and sweeter after midnight， those who crave for night life. Countless clubs, Ktvs, cabs, restaurants that never close. When people asked me how it felt coming home, I can honestly say "like I never left." Seriously what's there to be left behind? Family is still that family that loves and spoils me unconditionallly. Friends are still the friends that stand by me. No matter when you have been, you still came back for me. How far is Finland? To me it's just a smile away, a " I fucking missed you" away.Cos I know you never really left. How far is China from USA? It's just a hug and a mean joke on each other away. far enough to give us time to remember, relaugh and recherish the silly little things we did before and still so damn proud today. Yet it feels you are just so close. Close enough to prove we still have each other, that you are the biggest part of this 19 year old life, that you are all my sweet sunshine!! Tanning Tanning There probably I got too much sunshine back home and apparently the things I wore were not see-through enough for the sun to shine evenly on my "little muscle" body( I've been working out, bite me). I got back and found SERIOUS Tan lines on my shoulders and my legs were pale~ UUUUgly. So for the very first time since my life was established I went Tanning. Or the way I put it "painless human BBQ." Painless~~ was until I got burned after the second time. I didn't go back to that tanning salon for a good three days after the sweet razor-hurt-like-a-bitch sensation went away. Weird feeling lying on that seriously medical-use-looking tanning bed naked, it's like I am about to be studied by a bunch of white coats with writing board on there hands and they start to... shit ~sorry, that was my fantasy. lol I am on fire!! But it did make my tan lines go away and I look awesome! Thanks for reading.(normally 3 to 4 people but I am grateful). 27 April Prada RequiemTwo weeks ago, my carelessness caused me to make a terrible/ unforgivable mistake of my life--- I lost my First Prada Sunglasses in Callaway bank. I can't even stand the thought that my babies could be worn by some nasty skanky right now. I am in pain right now, both mentally and physiologically! I know there's nobody to blame except for me ( FeiYOU!!) at this point. It's like losing my only child except that you can always make more children but Prada only makes one pair of those sunglasses!~! God, please~ I will even convert myself to morman if you can give my babies back!!!! Everybody please mourn with me--- They were so beautiful! 26 April His "fuck it"He has a bad habit. He likes to say "fuck it" whenever he has anything that's too complicated for him to think or deal with. It's like those problems are gonna just disappear by themselves if he just doesn't deal with them and say" fuck it, whatever." So he said "fuck it, whatever" when he can't find his pants, so he walks into the bathroom in his underwear. He said "fuck it, whatever" when his computer doesn't work, so he doesn't write his paper. He said "fuck it, whatever" when doesn't get what the professor is talking about, so he walks out the classroom. From the very very first beginning, he woke me up every morning so I wouldn't be late for class. From the very very first beginning, he said "Morning Sunshine" before I even opened my eyes. But he has a bad habit. He likes to say "fuck it" whenever he has anything that's too complicated to think or deal with. So he said" fuck it, whatever" when I told him I can't spend the night cos I have to do homework, so he told me the next day I can't spend the night cos he has to do homework. He said "fuck it, whatever" when he heard there was someone else in my room after the party, so he makes sure I hear from somebody he had another someone in his room the next night. The worst of all, he said "fuck it, whatever" when he can't figure out what it was he wanted us to be, so we stayed friends. He has a bad habit. He likes to say "fuck it" whenever he has anything that's too complicated for him to think or deal with. It's like those memories and I are just gonna disappear by ourselves if he just doesn't deal with them and say" fuck it, whatever". So I told myself " A fling is just a fling. FUCK IT, WHATEVER." 10 April EasterEverybody was like: OH MY GOD, how was your Easter??? I am like: I got wasted in the house cos there was a party! They are like: Oh, so you didn't spend with your family?? I'm like: My family's in China and they don't celebrate Easter! They're like: Oh, i am sorry. I'm like: I am not, I had fun drinking and party with my friends. They're like: ... Great~~ I'm like rolling my eyes: Yeah, I think so too! Easter----- the day Jesus Christ got reborn. It celebrates the resurrection of Jesus, which Christians believe occurred on the third day of his death by crucifixion some time in the period AD 27 to 33. Me------ Atheist, in the absence of belief in the existence of God or other deities like JESUS CHRIST. On Easter,the celebration of Easter extends beyond the church. Since its origins, it has been a time of celebration and feasting. Today it is commercially important, seeing wide sales of greeting cards and confectionery such as chocolate Easter eggs, marshmallow bunnies, Peeps, and jelly beans. On Easter, the celebration of my choice includes attending the Mafia party and played beer pong with my friends; circle of death. Normally on a day like this, I end up wasted my ass off. So , em.... life is awesome because what you make it! and there's not reason and no point of this diary... 27 February I don't know if you've been told, someone here is getting old!!!Happy birthday Roxy, my best friend in this fucking world. Believe you me, I am gonna make it up to you when we go back this summer for being so far away and not able to be there with you. Tell all your friends there that I am jealous that not only they get to see you everyday, hear you everyday and "wash" you everyday, but also to celebrate the second most important day to me with you. Because of this day 19 years ago, I got my best friend. (The first important day of course is mine, cos the god gave you me on that day, so be grateful) 15 February tagged!!I've been tagged by Angel, damn it!! Just so you know I hate doing this, the only reason i am doing this for you is because I love you and I haven't seen u in a very long time!! Don't be mad Yvonne, I didn't do it when you tagged me was because we see each other everyday and I can answer those questions in your face! another thing, ,my computer can't type Chinese, so i can only do this in english. Sorry! １、2007年，你的野心是什么？ make a lot of money and go home in the summer and find a significant other!! ２、如果你可以变成卡通里的角色，你想变成谁？说出原因 Pikachu!!! cos that's my pledge name!
wish I can dream kissing Aaron
ditch him and move on
NO! N-O,NO!!
sort of, I guess. I mean, yes, very much!!
almost every sober night!! ８、春节了，想不想自己有新的变化（可以是外表或者思想）？ Yes, richer, so more money to shopping with,cos I need clothes to fill my empty closet!. and more independent.
Stick with my current mom,. cos I love her to death. I won't go looking for the real ones. I love my mom!!
Aaron carter. hello!
My mom!!
what kinda cheesy question is this? Get passed on to the next life I guess?!
my virginity. １４、如果一定要和一个自己喜欢的人分手，你会怎么说怎么做？ Why would I break up If I like him? give him my virginity to remember me by. １５、你对现在的生活状态满意吗？ NO,N__O< NO!! １６、你们觉得问题１２混乱吗？为什么？ fuck yeah!
Hot pot, BBQ, Chinese Beef Jerky
Yes, China-Chengdu!! １９、你以后希望成为什么样的人？平凡幸福的？有所作为但比较累的？ Executive in Dolce&Gabbanna. Or Ralph&Lauren in New York.
I always feel that way, even now, compromise maybe. but do you see me negotiate??
loving someone is much easier,
Aaron Carter, Ryan philipe, Ashton Cutcher. Justin timberlake, David Beckham.
Playboy mansion!!
Be friends, if he doesn't want to, then fuck off!
slap slap slap!!! ２６、本来有一个你喜欢的人你追了很久，但依然没有追到，而且他／她并没有给你好脸色看，过了一段时间，他／她或许有一些原因想和你在一起，你会怎么做呢？ Have a one night stand then never call him again!
Be cute. ２８、你觉得我是个怎么样的人？ my angel~~~~~~~ cry me a river baby!! ２９、中国人会是你来世的选择吗？ OF COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!! ３０、你如何看待“红颜祸水”这个词？ Are you kidding?? That word was invented because they know I was gonna be born!!!
YES! ３２、哥们儿回答问题前你们全吃饭了吗？ Yes
MY MOM!!
NO!!! I was called but I didn't even do it!
Independence.
Rich, hot, caring, goofy, who can put up with me.
smoke, drink, anything unhealthy
to much too tell ３９、你会为了你爱的人而放弃自己的愿望吗？ NO ４０、有没有人知道是谁发明了这个游戏？有什么想对发明者说的吗？
You suck!!!
４１、被误会了什么感觉？你会解释吗？ It depends on by who, if I was understood by someone I care, yeah i will. But by someone I don't even give a shit, then no.
Absolutely!! I am very rational about sex and love.1. Fuck,2. have sexy and 3.make love. Which one did you have last time?
time heals everything ４４、你做这个作业用了多长时间？还敢传不？ vey long, hell yeah! ４５、如果有一天让你具备一种超能力你想选择什么？ the power to get everyone I see be in serious love with me, that way I get everything.
huh??? Who said that?? Kick his ass!! your mama told you that!!!
Ask Rainie Yang!!! ４８、我的问题是，我是个怎样的人？ I told u , my angel!!Now, it's my turn, Yvonne, (haha, and you have to do it, otherwise, this is the last time you hear from me!!) Apricot, Roxy, and the guy who was hiding in Roxy's room, Cecilia and Robin. Wang dong!! Angel, invent some questions and ask yourself! 14 February once upon 2006飞机肯定要把我杀了，如果她晓得我把她电脑借来写PAPER的但是现在又在这写日记。 哈哈，莫生气哈，我读那个ARTICLE读的都要死了，所以分一下心哈。 本来万年前就要写一篇的，但是因为我的懒惰的激情，哎！~~ 今晚老子无眠，不是因为枕边无人，寂寞难耐，而是明天早上BIOLOGICAL PSYCH 大考，又有PAPER要写。 无法睡的~~ 其实有很多很多事在发生. That above was written last night when I still had Yvonne's computer. Now I am back in the library, fuck!! I can't type Chinese now. There's definitely something about my karma that's not right!! Stupid broke ass piece of shit! Well, what I was gonna say was a lot of things happened last year. sweet~ awful~ unforgettable~regretful~ (in case you didn't get it, I am talking about one same thing) So up till 2006, we all came to a conclusion that Men Are Not To Be Changed~ Codependent, obnoxious mammals whose egos are based on their dicks. That's everything every woman is generally upset , hence that's everything every woman is internally and desperately craving. hahaha That's something Carrie would say. I have no idea why Said that~i guess I am just so proud I "changed" a man in 2006 (don't ask questions, Yvonne, I told u already) But still just for for some aspects. He is still a codependent and obnoxious dickhead! That was it for the boywise in 2006, that's so pathetic. people have a shit load of things to write about their love/sex life i only had on paragraph. Well moving on. It's snowing 10 inches outside, it proved what I was telling everybody. So fuck you those who didn't believe me, told it's gonna snow! But still this broke ass school is still making us going to school!! Well actually making you guys going to school cos I don't have class today!! That's you Yvonne, I know you have like 5 today. By the way we got the first place at the coin collection!! Way to go SAE!! ( Way to GO ME, cos 95%of the money was collected by me) Right, 2006~~ emm... I made a lot of new friends and lost some old friends. i was really sad. But I guess this is how everybody moves on. Jinhee, Elizabeth, and those who graduated and those who are on probation and those who are really really far away!! I miss u all! We are all obsessed with something, I mean everybody who is alive and is able to move. I was obsessed with making money last year. Well I am still now, but different motivation. last Year I was desperate making money cos I wanted to go shopping, but this year, I am making money to go home in the summer!! I was also obsessed with torturing some certain Skinny Flat friend. You gotta admit i am so much better and nicer to you this year. I love you anyway, either way~~ just different way of showing. third obsession was Partying. I partied way too much last year. So this year I am slowing down. Now that my friend, is my new year resolution!! 06 November RhoadsRhoads...
Thanks for being my emotional support during the SAE Pledgeship
I guess swallowed by stress and anxiety is what was gonna happen without you being like a wall in front of me
Well this is just the way you make me feel
Watching you still holding up is the only thing that holds me up
It seems like you are able to do everything, always able to come up a way to accomplish every task
If this is how it feels to have a brother
Then you are the best brother a guys could ask for 02 October Happy Birthday China!!I was thinking about doing my French homework for the whole day but I still couldn't get started. So I decided to update my blog for the first time since May. So First, I would like to yell:: Happy BIRTHDAY CHINA!! The school recruit a lot of students this semester, it is said to be the "biggest class ever". I was kinda in a place then that everything could annoy me easily, so I was kinda cranky and abnoxious to see all the freshmen. Well, except for the arrival of Yvonne(fei ji). I was psyched!! I got the job being her mentor for the first semester. Ha! you gotta do what I tell you BIACH!!!! A whole new semester, I thought there would be nothing to be excited about, but the FOAM PARTY of the delta house made me psyched since two weeks before it!!! I was trying to get stupid Yvonne to the party where everyone else kept asking me why the hell I didn't bring her. So I ran to her dorm three times trying to find her, it was cold!! Well I was trashed, so hey, who the fuck cares!! It was so much fun, the foam was twice as high as last semester. Then, the PIRATE PARTY at the Sigma Alpha Epsilon( i am in the house, so I wrote down the whole name haha) House. It was awsome, except a fight happened with the Kappas. We all dressed up like pirates. Mandi, Jess, Tori, hanna, Dana and I and Brittany, we were dancing like crazy. Again, none of us was sober. And that night was also the "Office party" of the Phi Delts'. Ha, the crazy times. I took Yvonne as my back up date to the formal dinner at SAE, cos my date was F-ing late. I shopped for the formal outfit, it cost me fucking 100 and something for just a tie and a shirt. i am gonna have to work as a stripper or a prosttitude to get it back. Don't judge me ,life is hard!! Haha Anyway, thanks Yvonne, for being my date. Everybody is going somewhere this fall break, and I don't have a fucking clue cos I am flat broke. Life's shitty without money,yeah? So me and Yvonne are just gonna stay in damn Fulton and Gossip. ay~~so pathetic~~ We need to find a sugar daddy!! Speaking of sugar daddy, I just realized Jerry always comes to find me while I pass out early in my room. Everytime after he disappears for a long time while I didn't he still remembers me, he comes to wake me up in my room, coming as a surprise everytime. I guess next time when i wanna see you I'll just go to my room and pass out early. I don't know why I mentioned Jerry when I said Sugar Daddy, but there's no connection. I miss you and I hate it when you just disappear from me like that everytime. I know for sure there are tons of people who are very very pissed at me in this world right now. And Roxy would be the first one of them. I am very sorry for vanishing for so long, but there's not a single day I didn't wish you could be here with me or I could be there with you. I go to see your blog every week. I was scared to leave any comment because I was scared to see my name disappear from you diary. But I am so happy that you're having fun inspite of the homesicks. Remember, freshmen year is supposed to be fun. Don't push yourself too hard on school work. I hope you're not too pissed at me to come to view my blog sometimes, cos i really want you to see this. No one can replace you in my life, so I hope Nobody has replaced me yet......? 08 April 15，16，17，18你有天长大别理怎样养大
要快高长大就算怎样难捱 你最爱手抱 然后始终都靠你两脚走天涯 用英勇的姿态 出生于这风雨中怎么挣扎你未了解 你却要记住明天 这天气坏极亦有艳阳可晒 命运在静静摇摆不怕孤单 其实有几百万人祝你愉快 摇篮摆风雨飘长留最美彩照 摇篮多福荫少亦能胜温室小鸟 浮云哭春雨笑嫩芽吻到甘露了 洪流中火正烧原来都不紧要 出生于苦海里边大家等你以笑容化解 你要过快乐人生不强逼你日后亦受万人拥戴 珍惜这劫后余生不需要很乖 唯望你比我们这一辈愉快 摇篮曲一秒秒伴随你过生日了 其余都不说了但求你珍惜心跳 ————GIGI〈四月生日〉 temptation，是一种美国人不理解为什么中国人对18岁会有的感觉。 短短一年的时间，你们的生活变了，我的生活也变了。 15岁的生日有你们陪我，16岁，17岁的生日有你们陪我。 18岁的生日是我曾经害怕不会有人陪我。asian persuation,是又一种美国人不能理解的东西，再多的朋友陪我开心陪我疯，少了能理解这种temptation的你们，我还是会觉得空荡荡的。
大家都要努力啊，高考的还有几十天了，刚起哈。 还有Roxy，去芬兰准备的怎样了？以后会来看你的，还要一起去纽约完成我们的NYU梦哦。 李飞雨，好久都没的你的踪影了，不晓得死到哪切了，也不更新你的主业，你被录取了我只高兴，还有奖学金哦，夏天后就会见到你咯！！ Angel,你的梦想我清楚哈，所以要认真哦，不管还剩几天，都可以赶上的。 Totti,媚娘，michelle，鸣姐，冬瓜，赖赖，小龙，一眉，high，还有所有高2四和高一六的亲爱的。远在西藏的白马。 还有我一直在想念的陈曦，不晓得你过的怎样了。 所有陪我度过15，16，17的人。 四月的生日，18 岁后不会再那么依赖你们了，但不代表不会再想你们，我会回来的。
四月十一，祝我生日快乐。
31 March 幼稚园还记得那一天 在那一天 初次上学堂 从前渡每分钟 身边也有 父母在旁 终于天与地 需要独自往 两手必需放 但我不想放 边哭泣边回望 然后到这一天 在这一天 走出世界 早告别学堂 人大了我应当 一早惯了 没有护航 偏偏很幼稚 一有坏状况 就会想归去 父母亲的堡垒 不管麻烦事干 不要走 大钟即使敲响 你别放开手 成年后 什么都不可再 有成人迁就 不要走 前去在人群内 会磨炼到够 可见将来 日子总会有 顺逆流 不过此时 获得的爱护 无私爱护 未够 凡事也要小心 没趣得很 请不要再 迫我做大人 年月却太很狠心 催促上课 学会独行 几千吨责任 冰冷像校训 个钟啲塔跳 课室钟声响了 双手为何在震 12 January For youHow are you feeling right now??
I don't know what to say or how to say it to make you feel any better.
But you know I can always feel what you feel.
And you know you are the only one in this entire fucked up world whose emotion I would take to feel as mine, the only one whose problems I would take to suffer as mine.
I wanna let you know I have more faith in you than in myself.
Whenever you make a decision whatever that is, I am always there to support you.
I don't feel any better than you when you told me.
But I know you can always carry on cos' I believe in you that you can finally reach your dream
no matter how high it is...
Oh gosh I really don't know what to say except those crap.
I just want you to know you are not that easy to be beaten by any failure cos' I trust you, so trust yourself.
I promise you I am going to carry on this New York dream of ours for us until you think you finally make it no matter what that is. I am always happy for you, sad with you and crazy like you.
Love you. Leslie 06 December 吸烟不吸烟初生的你不吸烟怎会妄想吸烟 在禁烟区你两手空空 亦会若无其事渡过数十年 如果天生爱吸烟的可以再不吸烟 或有一天你也可改变 叫渴望化作呵欠 谁难代替难道为了 他安慰去讨一张约誓 眷念那一时忘记一切 难道惯了他手势 你永远向他拜跪 而难耐每过多一天污染减少多一点 再深呼吸空气变得清和甜 长发若也可一刀剪 他也可终生不见 再也别好胜去挑战 一生一世不吸烟怎会记得吸烟 没有他亲吻你的咀边 亦会淡然无味习惯当自然 何必因手瘾贪新鲜 所以与他相牵习惯跟恋爱只差一线 用意志戒掉这消遣 谁难代替 无论代价多么贵也放低这细艺 快乐过一时坏了一世 难道没有他手势这世界再不美丽 长发若也可一刀剪他也可终生不见 04 December Final weekFinally the final week is coming. Everybody is busy with their final exams.. of course including me
I have a goddamn final paper which is 10 page long and I haven't started yet. and There's a final
test of Environment Science on friday. I am so damned....
yesterday the big show of chior finally ended. I put my ass down to show chior especially that
hip-hop number___ britney spears Overprotected..... But it's so worthwhile. It was so popular
with all the audience. Ahhh satisfied,,, never know it feels so good to be on the stage.
Peple say i am a shopping freak and and person who lives on the edge~~ i think so ,, but
that's how i live ,right?? 2 weeks ago.. the 1st time I began to save money on my account..
and i had 200 dollars (my own money from salary) yeah~~ and I spent 170 $ buying my self a
pair of diamond earrings yeah`~ I feel so proud I can spend my own money to give myself
a treat. This is the first time i bought myself Diamond.... So special and memorable. Cheer for
me!!!!~!
I heard that everybody back home changed a lot for that goddamn gaokao...I really don't
know what to say. I can't picture you guys suffering I don't want to see you guys being
tortured by study. I wanna everyone be happy like before. But I know this is the right thing
to do . it's the time for you guys to move on and fight for your future.. One year suffering
can get a whole life happy and rich~~ fair trade~~~ i hope you guys be happy and satisfied
with what you are fighting for,. I know your pain now can gain what you want....
I am going to stay here for christmas .. to make money and be bored.. sorry can't come
home. But I am coming back after you finishing the suffer.. Angel I miss you so much and I
just know that Angel is a boys' name here in spanish... guys use that name.. roxy ,, reply
me on the sapce .. Shawn~~ so do you.. don't lazy get ready to send your information to
schoools.. Ray~~ i wanted to call you when i got drunk last night.. You are always the
person I wanna talk to when I get drunk. 543 guys I miss you so much .. Daniel , We
learned a song in chior is named DANIEL,,, that reminds me of you a lot. 1 mei~~ are you still
that good at study without studying hard~?? I miss you ,, and HIGH!! hahaha Do you miss
me these days?? HIGH HIGH into the sky~~~ I can't picture you study in the mid of the
night~~ jessica are quiting smoking??? I so miss oringe ~~ and polar~~~ I miss 2
I know you are dating someone in school hahaha I still know you well even I am not around
you... Michelle mei niang and Totti I hope we are still best friends when I come
back... I miss you to death.
And Yumi ``` that's right you melon... I Know something is going on with you and that
Black kid~~~ What the hell are you thinking?????? Are you serious breaking up with
watermelon?? Whatever ~!~ You do this a lot.. i know you guys will get back together...
I miss you ~~~
Kiko ,,, do you disappear from this earth?>??? i can't find a way to contack you `~ I hope
you still remember me......
Cindy sister you finally opened your relationship with rex~~ i am so happy I know you like
him~~ he's my brother in law now..
virginia sister and your little sister I cried everytime When I read your mails .. I miss you
we are going to ktv next summer right???
OK guys I gotta go ,,, I love you all and hope everyone sees this little thing I write on my
space. keep on miss me ,,so will I ~~~~~~ see ya 21 November The sh*t is bananas Why the fuck can't I write down anything when every time I actually have a whole world shit to say?? A bad bad boy for not writing diary anymore
A bad bad laptop for not working anymore.
Nobody knows how much I hate this laptop I borrowed from the library,because I can't type CHINESE!!!! Hell knows how much shit is going on around me .papers, presetations, tests,jobs are driving me crazy~~I can't BREATHE
Ha,just kidding , life is freaking awsome~~ although sometimes things do bother me so much,but I am learning how to deal with it on my own . Basically this is how people trying to be adults~~well how many people are actually perfectly good at it~~? Nearly nobody is adult,~~well then why the hell can't i buy alcohol in the goddamn Wal-mart?? This is how life is unfair and doesn't make sense~~well whose does?? People keep talking about how nasty and dealy smoking is (to my face) which I totally agree.Well which smoker stops saying"I am quiting"? But who actually is? I am one of them~~ See doesn't make sense~~ wait... out for a cigarette.
Ok, back~~aahh it's so damn freezing outside, but not too cold to smoke~~never!!
Cigarettes are freaking expensive here. One pack of Marlboro Menthol Lights money can buy me food for a whole day. Well if they both can last me for one day then why don't I choose the one I prefer?? Finally something makes sense~! Am I Spoiling my life?? Well who isn't?? Who has never overprotected their life?? That's why sometimes life doesn't make sense. You listen to your heart everytime to do and believe whatever you wanna do,but you suddenly find those things are against by the whole world and reality,then you feel unfair and think it doesn't make sense... Well what do you expect?The god is a girl,and girls are complicated. Maybe that's also why we should overprotect ourselves more.
Think this doesn't make sense??Well this is life~!~! Why is it that easy to pick a person to make out with in a party but so damn hard to figure out what to wear in the morning?? So many shit going on, who wants to scream with me??
Say with me "The shit is bananas---B A N A N A S
The shit is bananas---B A N A N A S!!!!"
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